This week as been long.. and challenging.
I am listening to "Mercy Seat" from the Travis Cotrell CD, and I teared up, at the part where it says, "I'm running, I'm running, I'm running to the mercy seat." That is me, everyday. I fail the Lord so much in just one day. I picture myself, literally running to the mercy seat of God, and begging for His forgiveness, and amazingly, finding that His forgiveness overflows out of His love and into my life. "His blood will flow freely, it will provide the healing..." amen to that.
We don't have to get our life straight and ACT like the "perfect child" that we think God needs. No, we come as we are and God takes us in. And with that, we leave what we used to be and embrace who He has called us to be. And I think that is the hardest part for me... I put God in this human perspective, and think that He can't possibly forgive me again. Again Lord? Are You sure? But, Lord, You see me and see what I did, and heard what I said, how come? These questions fill my mind every time I sin, and the enemy loves to remind me (and you) of what we have done in our past and what we did today, and that is when we are blinded by the enemy's lies, because they seem true. We are utterly helpless on our own, and we truly are condemned...without Christ. Those are the key words..."without Christ." And I know that I get caught up in this, but Christ has to tell me "You are forgiven! Don't you remember?" That is why He tells us in His word to remember what He has done! Isaiah 46:9 says,
Remember the former things, those of long ago;
I am God, and there is no other;
I am God, and there is none like Me.
there. is. no. other. Plainly said, there is absolutely no one like our God. No one else can provide the healing, no one else can save me from my sin, no one can give me life. No one. And with that being in my head, you would think that I would remember that "simple" Truth. But that is where my flesh takes over and thinks that God isn't enough, but that is when I am brought to my knees and reminded the same thing that Paul was reminded, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."(2 Cor. 12:9) Whether I'm having a bad day or the best day ever,God's grace is enough...God, the Creator of the universe, that makes my heart beat, the One that wakes me up in the morning, the only One, provides all sufficient grace...to me...and you. He meets us where we are, no matter what road we are on... He has been there with us every step of the way, and He isn't letting go. Now that is something I can hold on to and let echo in my mind when the enemy tells me who I was.
"For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive." (2 Cor. 15:22)
So if you find yourself questioning God's love, don't. It will leave you doubting even more because we cannot comprehend this amazing love He gives us. Just trust in it and have faith that His word is True. A quote from a book I read a while back said that "God doesn't condemn us, He calls us." Condemnation is only found through the enemy, God offers a great but a challenging call.... "follow Me." He offers us everlasting Life, a love that won't let go no matter what storm comes, and forgiveness that overflows.
Take Him at His word, He won't disappoint you.
